At the end of 2010 I started to to suffer from chronic panic attacks and anxiety which spiraled into terrible depression. I haven't been able to work a proper "job" since. When I first started Ruby Rebel Couture, it was for me to have a distraction from the thoughts going around in my head all day.
I grew up with a mother who sewed, she has had a few very successful businesses throughout her life, however I had no interest in following in her footsteps. Then at the beginning of last year, something just clicked inside me and strangely I just knew how to sew. Very bizarre!
My wonderful Mother & I
Anyway, the success of Ruby Rebel was completely unexpected and I started to get flooded with orders and interest from retailers to stock my handmade goods. Throughout the year, unfortunately my mental illness started to take more of a hold of me. I have had changes in medications, ups and downs in my moods and unfortunately, a very unwelcome weight gain. All of a sudden it became extremely hard for me to catch up with my orders, which was bringing me down as well. The cycle would just continue day in, day out.
The first order I received when I started
As I've mentioned in previous posts, the last few months have been very busy with moving house and the passing of my grandmother, among other things that have popped up over the way. Unfortunately, when you battle a mental illness, the smallest things that come up along the way can seem monumental. After hitting a huge wall a couple of weeks ago, which I would see as my breaking point, I made the decision that I need to change the direction of not only Ruby Rebel but also my life.
At this time I need to put more focus in getting myself better. I have made a conscience to surround myself with people and things that make me happy. I have recently been given the great advice that each day you should do something that gives you a sense of enjoyment and one that gives you a sense of achievement, so that's what I am doing.
Having these 2 in my life makes my days brighter
I will be slowing down on the pre-sale orders that I do and focusing my energies on doing market stalls and having things ready to sell.
So, the point of this blog is to reach out to you all. Perhaps there is one of you, if not a few that suffer from the horrible black dog. I just want you to know you aren't alone and to say - TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF.
If you ever need to talk to someone, my email is info@rubyrebelcouture.com
Till next time, hopefully a happier time,
Lizey xx